No lie, the new j-o-b has been stressful. It isn't so much that now I'm middle management, and people think I have more power than I do, or that people I used to giggle with look nervous when I'm around, or that I am working- in the same week- days, evenings and nights-, or that I'm unsure of what I'm impacting, when I know that having an impact means so much to me...no, it's all of those things. And more. It's coupled with the fact that I'm taking a grad class, and trying to have a healthy, good relationship with Mr. Wonderful, and stay healthy physically, mentally and spiritually, and keep in touch with friends, and relax and go grocery shopping and remember to fill up the gas and vacuum and do bills and laundry (laundry! Biggest mistake of last year was thinking that saving 100 bucks on rent would be worth trooping to the in complex laundry facility. Note: it is worth the convenience of having your own W/D!)...it's all of these things, and more.
I think I've done a pretty good job, though, to be honest. When things are getting to much, there is nothing wrong with a call to Mom and a good cry. Or a glass of wine, or a pedicure. And Mr. Wonderful is really wonderful. In my (not very extensive) understanding of relationships, there is a time when you either start laughing together more, or less, as the newness wears off. Luckily, we're laughing more, and that is a great thing.
The Dog is doing well, too, and, as dogs are wont to do, provides a source of comfort and love on days when it is all too much. She's getting older, she can't run as far or as fast, but is a study in how to age gracefully and maintain your spirit. She does what she wants, and can, and sleeps when she's tired. It's very honest.
But here is what I've decided. I'm at one of those points in life where you can either step up and things are hard, but you move towards something new and better, or you coast. I don't think coasting is always wrong, but for me, this is the time to move, and I believe that when you put effort in, you get positive results out, and it is for that reason I'm willing to endure some tiredness.
That, and the fact that I"m going on a tropical vacation in two days. Aloha! :)
I think I've done a pretty good job, though, to be honest. When things are getting to much, there is nothing wrong with a call to Mom and a good cry. Or a glass of wine, or a pedicure. And Mr. Wonderful is really wonderful. In my (not very extensive) understanding of relationships, there is a time when you either start laughing together more, or less, as the newness wears off. Luckily, we're laughing more, and that is a great thing.
The Dog is doing well, too, and, as dogs are wont to do, provides a source of comfort and love on days when it is all too much. She's getting older, she can't run as far or as fast, but is a study in how to age gracefully and maintain your spirit. She does what she wants, and can, and sleeps when she's tired. It's very honest.
But here is what I've decided. I'm at one of those points in life where you can either step up and things are hard, but you move towards something new and better, or you coast. I don't think coasting is always wrong, but for me, this is the time to move, and I believe that when you put effort in, you get positive results out, and it is for that reason I'm willing to endure some tiredness.
That, and the fact that I"m going on a tropical vacation in two days. Aloha! :)
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